Back in time

Yesterday, I gave you a high level overview. Today, I thought I would invite you to join me in my time machine and take you back to the beginning.
And by the way, my time machine is a Delorean.

When Lee was diagnosed with Pulmonary Fibrosis at Duke in early 2008, it was a shock. Finding out that someone you love will die within 3 - 5 years of getting diagnosed if they don't get a lung transplant is devastating. How the F was I going to deal with this? Well, I didn't. I fell apart. Guess you could say I had one of those nervous breakdowns.
But then the anti depressants arrived. And I slowly made my way back to where I needed to be. I'm not afraid or ashamed to admit I take antidepressants. No one should be. Sometimes, we need a little help. And that's ok.
In addition to anti depressants is a healthy dose of laughter. I love to laugh. Always have. And I love to make people laugh. I don't always succeed at making people laugh, but when I do, it's the best feeling in the world. Yes, I know, it's cheesy to say...that laughter is the best medicine. But it's true. Besides, I'm known for being somewhat cheesy. Unicorns and glitter anyone?
As for Lee...he handled the news with poise. He's been admirably strong throughout it all. He's continued to be hopeful. Even when he's not feeling his best, he still tries. Tries to visit with friends and family, tries to play music, tries to be upbeat. And he's always eager to travel to see his favorite songstress, Bernadette Peters, no matter how difficult the journey might be. That's not to say he doesn't feel nervous or upset or worried or sad sometimes. I'd be concerned if he didn't!

This year has been exceptionally difficult for us. Lee is now on Oxygen 24/7, he's already been through one evaluation in March and now another next week. And to top it all off, I lost my job last month.
( through no fault of my own, the entire center is closing )


So we're due for some good news. Keep those positive thoughts and kind words coming. We do appreciate them.